Fading

I wish I didn't give myself to her because she wasn't you. She put her arms around me & went to sleep & I tried to wipe the tears away before they rolled down my cheeks & onto her skin. She loved me but I stopped loving anyone else a long time ago. It's like my body hurts when someone touches me the way you did. My soul hurts too. It's like trying to replace you when I can't even begin to make you disappear. 

Forgetting the memory of you.

I wish it was easy to forget. I wish the last 5 years weren't constantly replaying in my head. How can I function when you're everywhere. I can't move without being reminded of you. There are not enough pills I could swallow to stop me from seeing your face.

Only You.