Forgetting the memory of you.

I wish it was easy to forget. I wish the last 5 years weren't constantly replaying in my head. How can I function when you're everywhere. I can't move without being reminded of you. There are not enough pills I could swallow to stop me from seeing your face.

Only You.

the endless beauty of you.

draw me, paint me, write to me. give me something you made with the beauty of your hands and your mind. drown me in your soul so i'm forever yours. dance with me. sing to me a song i can only hear. take me to your favorite places & tell me why they are marked by your presence. give me your story, your dreams, your fears. let me stare at you in wonder. be my adventure. be forever mine so i can be forever yours. 

Without You...

Without you I'm destructive like a hurricane violently going further out to sea. 

Slipping Away

There are days I feel like I'm planning for a life with you I may never have. Like I'm losing you & every second you slip a little further away. My past has left you with bitterness & my heart breaks for the things I can't erase. No one prepares you for these heart aches. I have no words for this emptiness. There is no medicine to cure this pain. 

you're my greatest adventure.

i hope your city lights are always bright & your sunsets always out shine your sun rises. I hope your days are fast and beautiful & flowers always bloom in the paths you choose to wander. i hope your night drives remind you of us and when your days are long & your thoughts drift away i hope i'm there. i hope i'm waiting & i hope it's all we ever imagined. 

Suddenly I'm in another place. Looking through this crowd for your face. 

Pretend.

I think if I missed anything it would be my innocence. The feeling of not knowing that monsters are real & happy endings don't really happen. Now I know & I don't want to. 

The Story of You

i love it when you take me to your favorite places. when you see them it takes you away from here. another time another place. your words become my favorite stories. 

coming home.

its amazing to me how people can spend their entire life wanting to escape the town they were born in. that's their whole live's dream is to just run away to some place new and maybe it was my dream too at one time. it's crazy how years can change someone, how things can be forgotten so quickly. I love this place, out of all the places here captivates me. driving these back roads at night with the windows rolled down has kind of became my religion. I breath it in and pray i'll never have to leave.

Favorites.

Staying.

she never tells me how she really feels. shes afraid it might hurt. she shuts down. she runs away. there are things i wish i didn't do or say, things i wish i didn't feel but i felt them. i wish i could erase them so they wouldn't be so hard to replay. don't think they don't haunt me. don't think i don't deal with it everyday. when i look at you i can't figure out what made you stay. 

home.

Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night & i roll over & breathe you in. It's like watching my favorite movie. It replays constantly in my head. All the letters, all the goodbyes, followed by all the awkward hellos. You know the ones after months of barley hearing your voice. All the adventures. All the times you remembered when it would have been easier to forget. The way your skin feels against mine and how I can look in your eyes when my world is complete chaos and suddenly feel like its going to be alright. I always go back to sleep because I know if you're there I'm home.