Love.

Stressing

Stressing about a lot of things, this week has by far been the hardest week since i can remember. and now i’m ill to top it all off. ive ate tons of take out & my hips look jiggly.  send wishes that i get better. cheers. 

Let down

Sometimes you get tired of fixing things. You get tired of wanting someone to love you the way you love them. You realize that the people you love more than anything will let you down, they'll choose you last & make excuses. You'll be hurt & they won't think twice about hurting you. I wish more than anything life wasn't this way. 

Beach Bum

OMG i leave for the beach in a week & i can't wait! 

So...here's some of my fav beachy pics 

wish you where here....

sometimes i think about us sitting in the car by ourselves that day and how it was so quite. & you looked at me and said this is our last trip together. i just laughed you off because i didn't want to believe you. i didn't want to think about us without you. me without you. & now i'm sitting here planning our next trip and you were right. you aren't here. if i could go back for 2 seconds i wouldn't let you go. i guess that's the hard thing about life, we don't get to make those decisions. i know we'll be leaving soon and part of moving on is doing the things we've always done together without you. & i hate the words "without you". there are so many moments when i wish i had you here. its like a hole or a empty spot and trying to understand that it will never be filled is something i don't want to wrap my mind around.