Bad Dream

its amazing how in the last month i have spent every waking second trying to replace you, trying to understand what it feels like to let you go.i feel completely messed up like i'm not even here. i wake up in the middle of the night with someone next to me & they aren't you & if i ever had a wish for anything i wish i could close my eyes & open them & see you. i wish all of it was just a really bad dream.