sometimes i wanted to pretend like you weren't here. like none of this was really happening. not now. not in this place. after all this time. i didn't want any of it. i wanted to pretend like you were still away & i was still waiting on you to come home. waiting on things to be like they use to be. i wanted to pretend you still loved me. pretend you were going to walk through the door even though i knew you never would.